be

days and weeks go by and life seems to move on

the future is now present and isn’t what I thought it would be

when does the grown life begin

imaginary friends and nap time seen like a life for youth

but they are at peace with no concept of time

And for them life is easy

affection love, food, a comfy cozy place to lay their head

seems to be their biggest concern

gut laugher at silly faces and screams when u they needs aren’t meet quick enough

in an instance a they can go from happy to sad... with no thought... with no contemplation...

only if adult life were that easy.

grown up emotions seems to be bounded my contemplation and theory

the hours spend discussing, understanding, and conveying feels hoping that the other person on the other end of ur your words

understand what and why you are saying what you say

did u mean what u meant or did i just take it another way.

no there no rhyme or reason or  even an encyclopedia that can define my emotion filled thoughts

i hope u understand

i hope you walk feeling what I had indented for you to

i hope that you know that I love you

not in that romantic kind of way

but the way the wants you to be happy

to get out of life what was intended to be lived

i want you to just be

NO ONE ELSE

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Would u? 11.28.07

But...... would you?
Could you be there when I  ignored you or
Didnt have time for you?
Could you listen to the pain in my voice
and know exaclty how I felt,
 but didnt do nothing cause I pushed you away,
 cause you felt it too?
Could you lift me up when I put myself down?
Listening to the mistakes that I made in my life and
knowing if I meet you a few years earlier then
things would be different...I would be different. 
And yet, would you still call me
even if I was the one who should be calling you?
I ask you once again, would you put up with you?....

All My Love 6.27.09

Time moves and hours go
But I sit still
Here waiting dor him 2 arrive
The dark night - the one who will
Come and steal my heart away.
O prince charming - I am here waiting for u
To have my all my luv
 My luv you can have.

Eye contact 5.7.07

staring at this from acroos the room
our eyes locked like coordinates on a grid.
 i can feel his strenght and its taking over.
weak i stand here engrosed in his spirt.
 frozen from his warm smile.
my hearts skips a beat.
i remember to breath as he says hello.......

Kodjo

Cinquain About My Ex

Mozambique
African Boy,
wore tight pants,
as glad its over
Kodjo
10.26.10

Looking at ur Pictures

Sitting here looking at you pictures
 Time is moving and i didn't even realize
I could sit here and look for hours
Cant wait until I watch you while you sleep
Then situate myself and fall a sleep in your arms
Cant wait until the day my last name is no longer mines.
 Has anyone ever told u that ur smile is contagious
ur lips are perfect
and ur eyes have a way of piercing right thru the center on me.
I am weak
I am nothing
and with you i have everything
words cant describe how eager i am to give up my last name

January 3, 2010 SSD